
i luv town.
Sometimes i look in the future, my future guy, my future cries of pain , hurt and deceive, im rally scared.
& all i know is that to make me able to love a guy completely , i must be satisfied over myself. Recently, i'm a fucker to this guy. he is the most sweetest guy but sadly what i did to him, even i cant forgive myself. I'm a bastard to him. He slapped my mind really hard. and i luv you for that ): maybe he reads this , i still ask for forgiveness.
i dont fall for guys who love me, even do there will be the best boyfriend in people's life. i always fall in love with the guy who i have eyes on . thats the reason why its hard to move on.
5 months single is just a number.( not include , the guy who i hurt) soon it will be 8 months single, perhaps by then i have a new start on a path to love/pain/heartbreaks.
this is just to let it out.
right now being alone does help to see what kind of guys there is out there.
okay lets stalk sexxaye girls