even if our friendship is destroyed you are best pal i ever had , in times we both are equally the same that causes us to have miscommunication maybe that's the thing that make me miss you the most. i might hurt you alot but i know you will always blame it on yourself. i really want us to be the days we used to have but sadly things changed and time changes :/
imissyou alot , pal. but i know you always treat me more than that. perhaps that's the reason why i gave you cold shoulder every now and then. cause i know i am not ready for one yet. in fact i never move on from my past. i don't want things to happened just like me and this guy , whom i break his heart into pieces even my tears and countless times of sorry wont work.

anyway if you replied my text tonight , i promise you kawan, i shall tried to be there when your problems arise especially your "ex" HAA, she called me a pricecheckeditior, which i didn't feel the pinch.

so tomorrow is the day i really HATE. i must be school at 10 which i can report tmrw at 1! grrr, since i have bridging activities for the CPT april intakes which i can forsee things wont happened the way it planned ( like always) so yeah only 1 game we are playing. & its just dog & bone. and i want to get out of school. shall bring my notebook along for tmrw and head out somewhere to chill most probably its the national library.

school is draining me out and my group still having do our powerpoint slides for PEQ. maybe tonight i might do some slides on it first. && i really wish my former classmates are in the same course and same class with me. i felt complete with them ! ITE friends are really different from secondary friends. its different cause the 4 yrs of bonding can never compare with unknown people from different school/age/attitude/stream/background. perhaps that is the reason why i dread coming to school.

being w my girls is being in secondary life all the memories will rush back to me ): its been a long time since i post my blog this long. maybe this inspired me to write more on how i felt during this month and last month. Im tired of pulling myself from the mess that i got into. I want you to tell me what i should do ? must i still wait for you or move on. i really hate to see myself in this condition.

and i give up on my o'lvl maths. i just want to concentrate of my modules first. even if i get a D3 i will be happy.i will be happy if im free from this mess. i shall start with you. tonight i shall ask you. :/

pal, pls sms me )): you meant alot to me , i always look up to you as my bro